I keep a box of kleenex on my desk. Not just because I have allergies, but so that when I’m reading a book I can just take a few steps to get to the box. I don’t consider myself a crier. I actually don’t cry much normally, I’m not sure why. When my grandmother passed last month, I didn’t cry. I was sad, and I still miss her every day. But not a tear was shed.
Which makes it all the more odd that certain movies and books will make me bawl. I was reading a short story collection last night and while most of the stories were just so-so, this one made me cry multiple times. At least I was alone at work so no one saw me? *laughs*
I’ll cry if something sad happens, sometimes even if it’s only the bittersweet kind of sad. Sometimes something is SO sweet it makes me want to cry (though no tears actually fall!) And other times I’ll be sitting there telling myself “I will NOT cry. No crying. No Crying!” And then of course I have to grab a tissue because my eyes won’t stop watering. Or I’ll realize the scene I’m reading is going to trigger it, so I’ll stop and take a break to do something else before I actually cry. Then come back an hour or so later and it’s like I never took the break, I’ll read a few more words and suddenly there’s water everywhere.
And yet, even knowing what’s going to happen, I can’t make myself not read that part. I can’t skim or skip over it, and I don’t stop reading things by that author. I’ll even cry if I’ve read the book before and know it’s coming! I’m sure certain books show the marks of my waterworks since they usually end up being favorites somehow.
Do you cry when reading a book? Is it always the same triggers if you cry? Does reading the passage multiple times dull the crying, or do you cry every time regardless? Do you avoid books if you know they might make you cry?